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Just Keep Swimming

Just Keep Swimming

Hello- I’m back and it’s apparently November. Where did the time go?

Honestly, the season I’ve been going through has been hard. And I hesitate to even say that because I’ve mostly been on the periphery of the hard things. They haven’t happened to me directly but to people I love. And when my people hurt- I hurt with them. I’ve also dealt with some things in my own life that have caused stress, pain and reflection. It’s everywhere, just turning on the news makes it apparent- the whole world is in turmoil and pain.

In dealing with my trials, I try and remind myself not to let situations define me. That life isn’t, and never will be, perfect. That if I choose to ruminate on the bad, I will likely miss the good. That God is with me every step. To put my attention first on the things I am called to do. And I’m often terrible at doing all that.

The details of my stress? They honestly don’t matter. I’ve been in hard seasons before. I bet you have too. And with the benefit of hindsight, it really is the process- the slogging through emotions, the finding people who can hold you up, the post-tears epiphany, the realization you did the hard things, and finding God’s redemption through it all-  that matters in the end.

So to cope- I watch funny YouTube videos. I listen to podcasts of sermons while I fold laundry.  I wear sweatpants and be comfy. I decorate for the holidays. I drink a regular Dr. Pepper instead of the diet. And I pray- when I wake up in the morning and when I try to fall asleep too late at night and when I’m taking deep breaths all in between. Also, I quote a very wise character from a movie. Dory- from Finding Nemo. Yup, Dory. The forgetful and hilarious blue fish.

“Just keep swimming”. Simple and true.

It reminds me I don’t have to figure it all out right now. That I don’t need to think more, solve every problem, and process every possibility. I just need to keep going. Most days that seems like too much and not nearly enough all at once. But I can do it. And if you are going through some difficult times- you can too. Pray. And just keep swimming.


PS- My sister is still recovering. Doing great but it is a long road. Prayers are always appreciated!

Spring in Texas, Winter in Me

Spring in Texas, Winter in Me

Spring is in full bloom here. Flowers are blossoming, the weather is hot one day and cold the next, I’m buying economy size bottles of Claritin for my family and it’s tornado season. This is spring in Texas.

Traditionally, spring is seen as a time of newness but I’ve always associated it with the end of the year. My internal calendar is based on the school year, so fall is my new year and spring is my end of year. And with that comes reflection. What did I accomplish? What areas are growing? What areas need growth? What needs pruning?

This year especially, my areas of growth are mostly internal. Which is great! Wonderful. Honestly it’s the most important. But my areas that need attention are external. And external is just so much more…visible. So while I’m thrilled I have devoted more time to Bible study, read more books, accepted new volunteer opportunities am working on more personal development- I’m frustrated that I’ve gained some weight, I haven’t kept my resolution to cook at home more often, and haven’t been as organized as I want-among other things.

Why is it so easy to let the perfection get in the way of progress? Why does one area seem to droop when another is growing?

I think I need to be better at recognizing my own seasons. Just like the trees grow dormant in the winter while preparing for springs blooms, I will have periods that require rest and internal focus which will ignite the coming outer growth.

I don’t want to be a cut flower, blooming only a short time and then quickly fading. I want to be a strong tree (one with pretty flowers and red fall leaves! Does that exist?). So I need to recognize times made for refueling. And that’s ok. Spring is coming.

What season are you in?